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june 24th, 09
some people have brilliant titles. witty, clever.. much unlike mine so i've just given up this time.
thanks to a friend who gave me the ability (and money) to do so, i've purchased to the faithful departed, bury the hatchet, & for never and ever for my pile of cds i'm trying to grow under my bed.
was nice to lay down in the grass a couple nights ago and listen to put me down (undoubtedly a cranberries song) as mosquitoes feasted on my legs and arms. of course i did not realize that until i came inside, and upon enjoying some corn on the cob, nearly keeled over when i caught a glimpse of my distorted limbs.
finished strawberry fields by marina lewycka, which is a pretty witty read i gotta say and has some nice little meaning-of-life stuff thrown in for added measure. along with one of those weird basic'ly plotless reads i love so much; play it as it lays by joan didion.

how i wish i could dance...

june 7th, 09
i've lightened my hair (and instead of blonde it turned yellow) so now ev'rytime i run into a screen door or something i feel bad for doing no justice to the stereotype. the sky has been freakishly blue and planes have been crashing. it is mocking me. it says 'you cannot stare at me for too long without blinding your eyes from the sun or getting some nice fresh gifts from the birds in your eye or upon your head.' still, stop with the plane crashing! the air france and the hudson thing and those other scattered mishaps within the past year... freaky stuff!

school is OVER at last!! i'm working on becoming nocturnal.

i've got a couple new pictures up for june (tho they're labeled may and don't ask me why)..

lethargy and dumb ideas

may 17, 09
i hate that torturous feeling when it is really hot outside and you've been running around or something and you step inside only to find that it is hotter.
added a load of pictures to the april section, plus a sketch of sinead. just realized i never had anything for march, poor lonely month.
yesterday may have been one of my record eat-as-much-as-you-can-without-spontaneously-combusting days.
fell asleep to the sun rising, and woke up shortly after to freezing feet and a vicious reluctance for the end of the weekend.

playing catch-up

april 28, 09

a voice like that doesn't need any more than itself to grace the ears beautif'ly nor do i need to add any more to this post but i tend to post more youtube videos than words of my own.

so, so , so... how have the days been...
for someone who doesn't care much about the current time i sure am in too much awe at how fast the months pass.
i like may tho. particularly cause i like flowers better than rain so the "april showers" part is near over. woohoo
what a boring person i am. what lousy words. what disconnect from my head to what i actually say or do or.. type.
isabella, come by more often. it is not the chocolate log one and downtown is the downtown we never paid much attention too but it was basically in our own backyards. so come by again and you'll see, there was a freaking pinwheel field a couple weeks ago ; you just took one out of the ground and stuck it wherever

good night. :-)

the best and worst time of year

april 18, 09
again , i prefer winter
my cat chewed my arm off, my feet are covered in mud, i smell, i cannot sit with my head out the window for too long because that one bee is always trying to make an entrance into my room, i have not eaten anything good, and at times you'll feel so sad...
but i have crossed the creek so many times today til i dropped my sunflower seeds in and had nothing more to do with it,
and i've found all these little random shops in back of 'downtown' (an area that , really, is a completely diff'rent side of the world than when back to the busy intersection i always feel like i'm a nuisance to be crossing and holding back ev'ryone)
and when i came back to modern day it was saddening, i don't like the modern day much
there is nothing wrong with my situation, but it is a pain how people just don't 'see' anymore..
there is no beauty in the things that once were held and described by such writers and poets gloriously...
so blind are we
i promised schnitzel#2 i'd build her a time machine for her birthday
so i will do, but i cannot guarantee it will work

a light switch's lament

march 20, 2009
i never turn my lamp on anymore. and most of my 1st sentences in every blog start with 'i'. but really it's going to start gath'ring dust pretty soon. there's a peace to hanging round in the dark (and a risk for eye defects, but who cares? i already can't see 5 feet in front of me.)

was riding bike round downtown, so stopped in to starbucks to get one of those london fog things i like so much (tho really i have so many earl grey packets at home it's becoming a compulsive get-me-out-of-my-house thing), and was planning on going in to the library to grab a book and sit and drink my tea and chill out. tho that sounds lovely, spent about 10 minutes just pacing back and forth between the aisles trying to pick out which poe collection to take out. fine'ly i grab one and just then the announcer comes on and says "may i have your attention please (no you cannot you're only a big booming voice in my ear, continue to relax all) i would like to inform you the library will close in 4 minutes. thank you."
no, thank you. so i put it away and walk around for a bit. mostly consumed that time running across streets (more like waiting in the grass as the people in cars stared at me as if to say get on the crosswalk kid) (not happening)
bought some grapeheads (related to lemonheads?) and left cause i was getting paranoid about it getting dark. sun was still way up above my head but it felt as if it was setting

just noticed the majority of this blog (aside from being completely pointless) was mostly in parantheses.

oh and i am on spring break. i mean to sound more excited. AAAAAAAAAAAHHH!

trees in the backyard

march 14, 2009
they're going down, i think my neighbors are chopping something down
or they have a psychotic lawnmower or it's a really small tornado,
maybe a mix
i am too scared to stick my head in my cobweb-infested window to see

bought the album a little bit ago, pretty song isn't it?
it is turning to spring now and so the flowers and stuff are flourishing, but let me tell you so are the cars
i can't cross the street without expecting a near-death experience
speaking of which the sun was behind a cloud in a very peculiar spot and so you could see the rays and stuff coming from behind it, so i turn to becca and say "i see heaven"
she thought i meant i was gonna die or something til i pointed, but yes it was a cool sight.
the days are going by now,
feeling very nice

i wanted to post something but i found i had nothing to say

march 9, 2009
that happens often

i'm going insane

march 2, 2009
everything around me is bipolar or something
soon as it turns march it jumps from 50 degrees (f) to negative something or other,
and i'm standing at the busstop trying not to lose my face to the wind and die before school even starts
and what's up with every one of my apples tasting like everything in the world possible EXCEPT AN APPLE.
last week it was soap, later it was some other random fruit, and now my apples taste like onions
oh and apparently some country has materials for nuclear crap,
our lives may soon again be seized and subject to someone's idiocy (i don't even know if i spelled that right. cold war ring a bell?)
thanks for asking nicely though
was debating with self earlier over what to use as a title, but current one seems fitting.
will die if not given something chemic'ly enhanced and artificial to eat soon

electric blue eyes,
where did you come from?
electric blue eyes,
who sent you?

i've met mother nature the proof is all over my shoes

feb 16, 2009
short excursion this weekend, but i'm too lazy to put all the pictures in a post so here's most;

sure i only have 4 school days to deal with this week but that doesn't mean i should have some aching desire to go.
because i don't.
i've been limiting myself to older kill hannah & cranberries lately
and then there's the microwaved chicken and super paper mario
a very dull day
if you'd call it a day at all,
man i hate js-kit, gimme my haloscan back.
stealing good ol' commenting systems from us nerds is like taking candy from a baby.

green thumb? au contraire, mine is gray

feb 11, 2009
unlike my art teacher i don't think those fancy smudgy pencil things are necessary for shading and crap,
i make like cavewoman and use finger

dolores o'riordan
no i don't see the need for a scanner either
that is pure camera power there.
the authenticism (?) of the looming pencil or whatever that is in the corner and the bad lighting is just too much to let go of
give a listen to daffodil lament- the cranberries ;)

saturday

feb 7, 2009
for the love of creative blog titles
my nose is producing so much mucus right now i could probably donate some to science. actually i'd love to donate all of it if they want. i got some pictures up tho, a couple i put up a while ago but forgot to post about (well didn't really bother to post about...)

alright so basically the whole february section is new.
i can see the grass again. normal people would rejoice but.... spring is just the only season i have almost everything against. i like spring BREAK just not the mushy rainy crap that comes with it.
whenever i actually remember to post i have nothing to say anymore.

i wish

feb 2, 2009
i could see the stars, even just one star, so i could freaking make a wish
the snow would stop melting and we'd have a big storm again
for world peace (you know i had to do it)
i had a grand piano
i had room for a grand piano
my radio dial WORKED
sitting on a snow covered step felt more tranquil and less wet
i didn't sound like such a hippie
they could make phones with keyboards that folded out as big as normal computer ones cause my fingers are too clumsy to press the dainty little buttons
gym locker rooms had little machines where you could stick your smelly uniform in and it'd pop out all clean the other end five seconds later
i knew what this song was called
some other guy was singing it
the cranberries would get back together
i had some peanut butter
i had some chinese food
my computer would stop changing time zones every few hours
i had mad jimi hendrix or stevie vaughn skills
i could stop wishing and go do something useful
i didn't just type that cause i didn't mean it
people would stop thinking atheism is a religion (no i'm not tho)
i could be friends with cyndi lauper
music would sound like this again

ran out of ideas for titles

jan 27, 2009
not that i had any in the first place
there hasn't been much to talk about lately. i watched napoleon dynamite for the 1st time in my life last saturday. yea i'm about 7 years late. uhh then i made some cookies... watched friend get molested by a bug... oh and apparently i'm volunteering at a retirement home, you know, to pour coffee and give manicures and crap, cause i decided i was cold and so took refuge in the nearest place that happened to be... the retirement home. some lady motions us in and my friend thinks it'd be fun to volunteer us. time will be the judge of that. hopefully time will get them to stop staring at me too.
if you throw a quarter in a fountain, do you get 25 wishes?
hmmm..

i still do - the cranberries
freaking pretty song

because i get bored easily

jan 21, 2009
i made another layout, as you can see... sure less blue than the last one but still just as bleak and colourless otherwise. whatever. i liked this picture. so i added some more pictures from walking around in the snow like i said i would about a million years ago but my hands got to a personal freezing point and you can't wear gloves with a camera.. it just doesn't work, so i only have a few pictures... still, for 10 minutes tops here's the result:

meet my cat, mitzy. she's somewhere there in the middle :) and due to MLK jr. day my mind is in recession and i keep thinking it's tuesday. which is great i mean hey i don't mind thinking it's thursday then realizing it's friday, i really don't
oh and el presidente/top dog/THE MAN/whatever you want to call it is now mr obama, let's have a round of applause!!

tis the season

jan 14, 2009
snow snow snow! it was everywhere.. surprisingly i got to clearing the driveway pretty fast and tomorrow i will walk around camera-happy and a lense wiper in my pocket, you know, for the stupid condensation and stuff. all these random clusters of birds just keep appearing places. like one minute you'll drive by and they're terrorizing some church-goers swarming around the front and stuff, then they'll be in some old guy's front yard. then they're on your roof and eating random crap on your front lawn. and you scare them away and you think the house is gonna cave in cause there's such a rush of wings. i couldn't recognize my street when i got off the bus today. i thought "hey, this isn't.. HOLY CRAP THE STREET IS GONE" even the street SIGNS were covered, you had to practically memorize the scenery or number of trees or something along that particular road to get the turn right.

facelift

jan 12, 2009
i'm back.. fine'ly.. who knew randomly clicking on files can restore what randomly clicking on files screwed up in the first place..